No, he fears the loss in size and losing his identity over tapping the brakes (going on true TRT) and
transitioning to a reasonable bodyweight that doesn't put him in an early grave.
I actually thought about this today and at first I thought you were totally right. Then I thought about it
I am assuming you read my post about what I have taken. Did you notice that like in the last 4 years I have trained maybe 12 months total? I also had rhabdo which I had no muscles at all after that i think I lost 50-60lbs or more in the 3 months or so it took me awhile to get better and then to relearn to walk again. After that I tooled around the house for a month and was just like dude you are going to waste away and die early if you just accept this lifestyle... you need to go to the gym. I have stated many times that the weight I use is comical. The reason why I am saying this is because my identity is not really centered around lifting at all. I got 2 friends and 2 brothers I talk to about it and they are like how's the gym going and we might bring up something that happened or goal that was hit but thats it. The gym I go to now is full of Latinos, they all speak spanish no one talks to me it's awesome! Old golds gym they got great equipment, they got 4-5 different machines for calves! Where do you see that today?? Its actually the first gym I ever went to. I mean I am really tired of telling this story this is the past it does me no good. I really think I like training more than the actual results as I train way too much. I think I am going to start going less.
So from the paragraph above I have tried to convey that my size it not what I fear losing...As its been gone for some time now, sure I hover around 250-260 and that is a big guy(not really around here) but I am not really lean and most people say I look about 30lbs less than I am. I've been 255 with abs in the past now I have flabs. I see these guys on the board that are around my age to 10-15 years older (than me) and are in excellent shape and a part of me wants that for sure, but is it in the cards? Might as well try like hell, I can't think of anything I'd rather be doing. I am just a gym rat at heart and seriously who is going to train not on something except for maybe the 1st month to get your body up to speed. Plus if I am dead I won't care what I had done and I am responsible for no one financially, but people do rely on me for emotional support. Oh and Honey do lists from my mom, aunt and sis.
Reasonable body weight? For a 5'11" again go with the bloods I am as healthy as anyone on this board. My cardiologist says my heart is fine and that I just have a mechanical valve in it. I also come from giants my moms side of the family are former Mafia enforcers, pro ball players, police, my cousin got offered a 60k year deal with the Milwaukee Brewers out of HS. I think he threw well into the 90's. His dad/my uncle played for the Baltimore Oilers. My dad side not so much and don't really much about them. So what is reasonable? I am a runt of the litter here and I got 26 cousins. Some are huge not muscular huge but like lineman huge. 6'5" and at least 400lbs. I can put on weight so easlly but its not quality weight you want. I feel really good from 230-260.
Okay so tapping the breaks, I mean i kinda feel like I am with 500/500 cyp and eq. If you think 1000mg of steroids is going to put you in an early grave I would disagree with you. I mean that is nothing. Maybe if you didn't have all the support drugs I have to take with this...maybe and I really want to add some growth as well if I can get away with it. I mean maybe if you took a 1000mgs of halo a week, but cyp and eq are pretty safe and you got to go above a gram to start seeing real good results from eq..imo
So in closing
No, he fears the loss in size...nope already gone
losing his identity...no not really, my biggest fear is not being able to train as training just helps me out both mentally and physically
tapping the brakes (going on true TRT)....as long as the bloodwork is good and tests are good why bother with trt.
transitioning to a reasonable bodyweight....what is reasonable and who says so?
put him in an early grave. I'll be dead I won't care.
I think you came up with this arbitrary statement that somehow you think is true just because you said it. Like I disagree with all of it but it was good food for thought for a day so it wasn't all for not!