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If you think you hit rock bottom yet thrust me what you about to hear will let you rethink what rock bottom is.
3 years ago was the worst day in my life where i lost my dear mother who was only 54 years old due to stomach cancer. she was only sick 1 month before she passed away and i was there to hold her hand in her last breath. many sleepless nights at the hospital next to her. it was really tough year to heal from the pain when i started to heal from the lost it was my time to go trough hell. I wake up one day screaming of pain it was like someone was trying to kill me with a knife even after 2 morphine shots the doctor could not take away the pain, i don't wish anyone this pain it was next level, at the end he knocked me out with fentanyl luckily because i could not take it anymore i was biting the pillow at the emergency room to not scream. when i woke up they took me to the for a scan and what they found was 2 big tumors in my liver. first the doctor said to my aunty its probably not malignant to 99% but my aunty went furious and said i lost my sister due to cancer i am not gonna lose her son to i demand a biopsy right away. so the doctor ordered a biopsy and after they biopsy i went home waiting for the result and not long after we got a phone call from the hospital saying both tumor's are malignant and very aggressive we need to perform a surgery asap but since its a very big surgery there is complications and he can over bleed so its a risky procedure but we have to do it. The surgery took 10 hours and i lost a lot of blood but luckily the doctor said i had lot of blood so i made it. The doctor did remove 70% of the liver and had to remove my gallbladder due to its on the right side. I had to spend 1 month at the hospital with morphine cable attached to my back so i can push the button every time i feel pain. After 1 month i was sent back home and was sofa laying for another month. it was hard to breath so they gave me a machine to breath trough and at night when i try to sleep i get panick attack and get trouble breathing. was very annoying. its like someone strangle you. my apatite for the 2 months was forcing to eat 1 apple a day so i can get my medicine down even my brother brought me thinks i love to eat snacks and chocolate i just wanted to throw up i did not want to look at food. in couple months i was down 18kg. When life starting to get better 2 years later training was going good and recovery was on top starting to feel normal again then something happen again this time from the surgery sutures i developed 2 hernias first they where small but then they got bigger and bigger so i had to go under the knife again and reopen the wound again. So i had mesh replace in there to hold it. under period was waiting to recover from this hell but i was positive knowing that i will get back no matter how long it will take i wont let this sink me its a under testing in life to see how much i got in me.
Here is some photos pre cancer and after. not a nice view.
Here are some photos before my cancer weighing in at 88kg.
Hope you all follow my way back to same shape and size i had before i went trough hell, will be posting diet, training, and photos updates and hope my journey motivates you to keep pushing and never give up. we all got a beast inside us that refuse to quit.
3 years ago was the worst day in my life where i lost my dear mother who was only 54 years old due to stomach cancer. she was only sick 1 month before she passed away and i was there to hold her hand in her last breath. many sleepless nights at the hospital next to her. it was really tough year to heal from the pain when i started to heal from the lost it was my time to go trough hell. I wake up one day screaming of pain it was like someone was trying to kill me with a knife even after 2 morphine shots the doctor could not take away the pain, i don't wish anyone this pain it was next level, at the end he knocked me out with fentanyl luckily because i could not take it anymore i was biting the pillow at the emergency room to not scream. when i woke up they took me to the for a scan and what they found was 2 big tumors in my liver. first the doctor said to my aunty its probably not malignant to 99% but my aunty went furious and said i lost my sister due to cancer i am not gonna lose her son to i demand a biopsy right away. so the doctor ordered a biopsy and after they biopsy i went home waiting for the result and not long after we got a phone call from the hospital saying both tumor's are malignant and very aggressive we need to perform a surgery asap but since its a very big surgery there is complications and he can over bleed so its a risky procedure but we have to do it. The surgery took 10 hours and i lost a lot of blood but luckily the doctor said i had lot of blood so i made it. The doctor did remove 70% of the liver and had to remove my gallbladder due to its on the right side. I had to spend 1 month at the hospital with morphine cable attached to my back so i can push the button every time i feel pain. After 1 month i was sent back home and was sofa laying for another month. it was hard to breath so they gave me a machine to breath trough and at night when i try to sleep i get panick attack and get trouble breathing. was very annoying. its like someone strangle you. my apatite for the 2 months was forcing to eat 1 apple a day so i can get my medicine down even my brother brought me thinks i love to eat snacks and chocolate i just wanted to throw up i did not want to look at food. in couple months i was down 18kg. When life starting to get better 2 years later training was going good and recovery was on top starting to feel normal again then something happen again this time from the surgery sutures i developed 2 hernias first they where small but then they got bigger and bigger so i had to go under the knife again and reopen the wound again. So i had mesh replace in there to hold it. under period was waiting to recover from this hell but i was positive knowing that i will get back no matter how long it will take i wont let this sink me its a under testing in life to see how much i got in me.
Here is some photos pre cancer and after. not a nice view.
Here are some photos before my cancer weighing in at 88kg.
Hope you all follow my way back to same shape and size i had before i went trough hell, will be posting diet, training, and photos updates and hope my journey motivates you to keep pushing and never give up. we all got a beast inside us that refuse to quit.